Author Archive for John Oommen

30
Jul
11

To do whatever is right

I was thinking of the countless times in life we face the question,”what do you want to do?” All through life we fumble with these words that hold more than a million imperatives.

As a kid the all important question was,”what do you want to do when you grow up?”My answer to this kept changing all through childhood from an astronaut to an actor to a lawyer and whatnot.Even now I have no idea what I will be doing when I ‘grow up’ or even what I want to do.Such is the dynamic of this type of questionss(and in this case the immensity of my ineptitude).

And life does throws the ‘what do you want to do’ question at you ever so often.But there really is just one answer to these questions,”To do whatever is right!!!!!“Think about it,isn’t that what we all ever want or try to do?

27
Jul
11

Monotony

If life was a video game, this would be the point where I got bored and quit or skipped a few levels ahead with cheats.

07
May
11

Random blurbs

Blasting “Skillett”,the new band last.fm helped me find, from my feeble phone speakers. Something about breakups make you wanna shut yourself up in a room and load up on music. Then again music is therapy for most problems.

Vacations are on so been catching up on a lot of stuff-music,reading,sleep. And not to forget strumming my guitar and I’m proud to say I can finally coax some decent rhythm out of it. Just finished reading Ken Follet’s Fall of Giants and Khaled Hosseini’s The Kite Runner both fantabulous book;the former is an epic set during world war I and the latter is so powerful a story that I’m still in its afterglow.

A lot happening on the personal front so been all caught up in that also.The breakup I previously mentioned which in hindsight was a long time coming.Surprising how we fail to see when things fall apart right in front of our eyes.Maybe a detailed post on that later.

Will be leaving town for a couple of days.Another misadventure.Later.

21
Mar
11

Should and should nots

Things I should/need to be doing:
1)Studying,
2)Studying and
3)More Studying

What I have been doing since morning :
1)Finally jumped on the twitter bandwagon just for the heck of it. Plus the twitter birdie looks kinda cool on my browsers speed-dial.Don’t really get what all the fuss about twitter is-it is kinda lame.
2)Read a lot of tweets dissing Rebecca Black,she’s leading the TT(trending topics) on twitter.So checked her out online and saw her music video which kind sucked.Then saw a bunch of spoof videos and parody’ of Rebecca Black which was much better.
3)Now eating dosas and spicy chicken curry as I write this.

My exams starting from 31st of this month and I’m kinda in that phase between having a ball and desperately cramming.HMU on twitter if you want.I am johnoommen.

12
Mar
11

anthem

I’m scared and yet I don’t stop.
I’m weak but I still fight.
I hurt but I don’t cry.
The odds are against me but I still survive. Always.
For this strength I thank ye lord.

P.S. Impossible is nothing.You just have to believe.

31
Jan
11

Bean-struck

“Mr. Bean tumchi ghenar ahe!”(Mr. Bean is going to screw you people!)
He is looking for you guys.”
Yes,I knew that;we both did.Hearing it out loud just didn’t help.And the nerd who pronounced our fate did it with a relish,enjoying every syllable.I think he came to the college canteen for the first time in his life just for this.

Me and Robin were in our second torturous year on our way to become mechanical engineers.The semester was almost over and we were in the biggest mess students could ever land up in:our assignments were overdue,all the professors of our department were hunting us for various reasons and with a healthy attendance of around 34%-35% we were sure to be detained for the year.

Add to all this the head of our department Prof.G.Kadam had taken a keen interest in us.Our seniors had nicknamed him Mr.Bean because of his slightly whimsical walk and comical body language.But contrary to his nickname he was a villain with a reputation.Already that year we had experienced his wrath on more than one occasion.And now after two very strict warnings(which we didn’t heed)and having told us to get our parents if we want to appear for the coming exams(which we totally ignored) it looked like he was going to take no more shit from us.He wanted to see us and I was pretty sure we had exhausted our share of warnings and threats.

Walking down the corridor to Mr.Beans we knew we had it.I was already picturing telling my folks about this and getting thrown out of the house.Right beside me my buddy must have also been having the same thoughts ‘cuz he looked very pale.Thinking that he was in dire need of some reassurance I decided it was better to break the silence.
I looked up at him and said”Chillax Rob we’ll ride this out ya”
He seemed not to hear me at first then stopping in his tracks he thought for a while and said,”Yea I guess”
Somehow he didn’t seem convinced about it,his voice lacked the usual bravado.Hell I thought even I was shit scared lets just get this over with.

Bean ushered us into his office with a curt nod.There weren’t going to be any plesantaries this time.He didn’t even look up but kept scribbling away beneath a printed page he had on his desk.

Finally after what seemed like eons he looked up,”so where were you two during my morning lecture,missed the bus again?”
“yes sir”,we mumbled in unison.
“Ahh,I thought so!
“Why didn’t you just stay home?You don’t seem interested in studies or anything.Your assignments are overdue,your attendance is miserable.I think it’s better that you are detained this year and not be allowed to give your examinations….”
“Sir,please…”
“Please what Mr.Mascarenhas?”This was to Robin.
“Sir our assignments are almost done sir…”
“Yes almost done!They have been almost done for a long time now.”
He turns to me”What Oommen,didn’t I tell you that you’ll have to bring your parents.Where are they?”
I look down and start admiring my shoe laces.He goes on,”Do you know that the required attendance is 75% for theory and 100%for practicals?Only on that basis alone you could be disallowed from giving the final examinations….”

Bean had abruptly stopped his discourse.I looked up and saw him staring at Robin.Following his gaze I saw that Robin had a strange grimace on his face and was sweating profusely.As we kept looking he stumbled,collided into Beans desk and crumbled to the floor.

Fear,aprehension and anxiety of my situation started colliding with concern and worry for my friend.I was so shocked by what had happened that I stood rooted to the ground my mind refusing to believe what was taking place.I was already strung with tention and had braced for Beans wrath but this completely derailed me.

The initial shock soon gave way and I rushed to his side my heart still beating like a chopper in high flight.With great difficulty I sat him against the desk while he seemed to be slowly drifting back into consciousness.Meanwhile our tormentor rushed ahead with a glass of water and seemed to think shaking Robin would make him okay.

Finally Robin came to enough to accept the drink with shaking hands.He looked a mess and wasn’t aware of his sorroundings at first then slowly realizing where he was he tried gingerly to get up but Mr.Bean gently pushed him back.
“Sit back a bit,I don’t think you should exert yourself right now.Drink the water.”
Saying this he got up grabbed me by the arm and pulled me to the side.”I will go get someone to help take him to a doctor stay here and remember my warning:another toe out of line and that will be it,understand?”
“Yes sir.”I let out a sigh of relief and rushed to my buddys side.

-END-

I know the title is kinda off but whatever,couldn’t think of anything better.

This post is written for the Close Up “Fire-Freeze” Contest on Indiblogger.in.

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24
Jan
11

Blast from the past

I’ve heard that history has a way of repeating itself.But actually watching glimpses of what should be old sepia toned photographs play out in full HD right in front of you is creepy as hell.
And these stories have horrible endings.Not going down that road again.No.

11
Jan
11

Muted Joy

I was out taking advantage of the winter sale this morning and by the time I finished with my shopping it was well past noon.

Walking home with my loot I passed a group of kids talking and laughing at the bus stop.I didn’t give them a second glance until a few steps later I noticed that almost everyone at and around the stop were casting weird glances or shamelessly staring at these kids.Curious I turned to see what everyone was so interested in.They were average looksing school kids dressed in uniforms and carrying backpacks but somehow I hadn’t noticed that they were talking using hand gestures.The girls were giggling away and the guys fooling around.They were in their own joyous world oblivious to the stares of the people about them.The air was so full of their silent chatter and happiness it was impossible to look away.

This sight was so refreshing and touching that inspite of myself I stood there among the crowd staring at these innocent kids.Their silent happiness had touched me and left me with a feeling of having learnt something very valuable and meaningfull.

03
Jan
11

New year resolutions

This year I thought I’d take some time over my new year resolutions.I mean,actually sitting and thinking about it and not with a drink in my hand.And for once trying real hard to stick to them.

So after two days of lazing around(part of the first day I was working of a hangover-courtesy one too many Cuban Libre’ on 31st :) ) I have decided to start working on my resolutions for this year.

  • Firstly this year I am going to stick to my new year resolutions.And hopefully posting this on here will help in keeping me on track.
  • I will be brave.And by brave I mean in whatever-which way possible.I will be courageous in my decisions and actions.
    If I must say yes, then I shall bravely say it.
    If I must say no, then I shall say so without fear.
  • This year I’m going to get of of my lazy butt and work hard.Try and utilize every second productively.
    I have my exams coming in April and later towards the end of the year I’ll be giving C.A.T. and other entrances for an MBA and I want to give it my best shot.I think its my time to shine( or about time I shine :P ).
  • I will spend more time playing my guitar and working towards my musical goals.
  • I want to work out seriously this year.Lose a couple of pounds,work that flab off.
  • Listen to more music.Read more books.Spend more time writing stories,poems and stuff.

That’s it for now but I will be adding things as and when I think of them.I already think I’m asking too much from myself because that right there is a badass list.Lets see how things go.

Looking forward to a great and rewarding year ahead.

27
Dec
10

Of Rituals and Goodbyes

It’s December.More than Christmas,the cold-*shivers violently :-P * and so many other wonderful things,December for me is about being nostalgic.I like sitting alone for hours on end wallowing in an retrospective/introspective mist.It’s like a ritual taking of stock thing:to look back over my journey through life so far,my dreams and aspirations and how they are shaping up,my failures and the lessons learnt from them and confronting my fears and doubts and so on.

Sitting there and watching the last year flashby in my minds-eye I feel so proud today.Proud and happy to be where I am,who I am.This feeling was so strong I knew I had to put it on here.I want to look back one day and remember this:the year of renewal,the tottering footsteps of a new start and hopefully of a splendid future.

So much has changed in the last year.Within me and around.I believe I have grown a lot.I also know the journey is far from over,that this is just the beginning.

Goodbye 2010.Waiting with joy,hope,apprehension and fear for the year 2011.




ABOUT ME
An Outlaw,compulsively cynical and self-confessed geek.Passionate about art,music,culture,literature,etc.
Part-time poet,philosopher,writer and sober.

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